I AM SO FREAKING IRRITATED!!!!!!!!!!
BLOODY SIMS WILL NOT WORK IN MY BLOODY COMP!!!!!
ARGH!!

-runs to the nearest ocean and jumps into it-

but then again. i would die just running to an ocean.

ARGH!
fucking piece of shit!!
i have superstar and making magic all here staring at me BUT the original one cant work. and without it, i can dream on!! FUCK!

//under construction tentatively.

graduation, graduation, graduation.
i wish i were sec4 THIS year too!
everyone's bustling around getting their dresses, makeup and hair done.
mounting excitement!!
if only i were there!!

//i think to myself where do i belong forever?

was out with doreen and nana yesterday. and yes, sabrina wee. i insist on calling you wee yue wen. and please stay out of mobile archive, thank you. coulda strangled tht girl. watched tht butterfly show. la papilion or whtever. tht girl is so damnit cute!! my god. though i was trying hard to sit straight thru'out the entire movie owing to the fact that my bladder was bursting any minute!! sheesh. and the both of them just happily dismissed my imperative condition, asking me to 'go pee la!' just so i would desist my whining. thank you, i DIDNT know i should do that! -grumbles. BUT i lasted till the movie ended la. realised i overshared. but anyhow. the movie's quite good. and gramps+grandfather in french is so cute! pipi or something. cant remember. anyway doreen was moooooody and subdue. until, of course SOMEBODY perked her up ;) had dinner at pastamania and nana has a problem with my process of putting spaghetti on the spoon and adding cheese to it before i devour it. thats the way i eat it okay! hmrpf.

s t e p o ! signed your deserted guestbk. did you check? cant wait for friday either. been a LONG time. really! need to buy some bras..-wiggles eyebrows- suddenly thought of our er times when i'd cradle in your..sheesh. this is getting RAted. as always! just hope people dont get the wrong idea like they did about you+tings..for being pl. -laughs- THAT was HILARIOUS.

t i n g s ! i missed you BADLY, girl!! not sure if you got to use your dad's laptop like last time but er i guess not. anyhow. HURRY UP AND COME BACK ALREADY!! im becoming a living souless ghoul ._. got stuff to tell you tooooo!! GRUNTS IN FRUSTRATION.

:,(




Do you know when you go when you give it all away
I'll be there for you, care for you
Love you everyday oh baby
And do you feel the same for me?
Everyday you're away
And I feel a little low
I would cry for you, die for you
Just to let you know oh baby
And if you come to me you know I'll make it right.

sorry you cant define me
sorry i break the mold
sorry that i speak my mind
sorry dont do what im told
sorry if i dont fake it
sorry i came too real
so here it is. no hype. no glass. no pretense.

sorry if i aint perfect
sorry i dont give a fuck
sorry i aint no diva
sorry i just know what i want
sorry im not a virgin
sorry im not a slut
i wont let you break me, think what you want
lift your head high and stay strong. keep pushing on.

//xtina aguilera.

heh.

my sister is grinning ear to ear. literally. cos her o's end today. and her happiness is so contagious! anyway shes happily skipped to town or PS or wherever jurassic park is today ;)

am stuck at home with my mum. reading how to deal again. heh. and wondering when sq would be back to lend me SIMS :( i WANT TO PLAY SIMS!! argh.

young girl, dont cry.
i'll be right here when you world starts to fall
young girl its alright
your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly.

its stuck in my mind!

and tingtingtings. when are we gonna catch wishing stairs?? heard its good! :) us the scary-movie-goers.

steph! its up to you when you wanna come. my mum says its okay.

daily horoscope for sagittarius by Cosmogirl

Sagittarius
(November 23-December 21)

Yup, you've got responsibilities that can seem to get in the way of fun today, but that's the way it is sometimes, Saggie. Focus on school, work, and taking care of business at home. The more efficient you are now, the more freedom you'll have later to do what you want. Besides, you'll probably feel good about yourself by showing how mature you can be.

^{x havent felt this way in a long time x}

didnt feel like blogging.
too tired.

yesterday was a day filled with emotions! like happy one moment then shocked then worried then happy then sleepy and stony..you get the picture.

my results suck like fuck. and my mums so nice about it. im gonna do something with that rotting brain of mine this hols. two stacks of books piled up on my table. i shall conquer math!! yayy. heh. too early for celebration. got motivated to pack my table. its so neat now! and i found this hello kitty scotch tape thingy. so cute! resting on my table now :)) and the plant on my table is finally growing! haha.

went to stephs house yesterday to slack and play SIMS :D shuqi got all of us addicted! anyway i SO guai-ly went to school for cca just to find out there isnt cca. im toot la. forgot that they passed a message down that there wasnt cca. hmrpfs.

my sister is crazy. seriously deranged. shes abusing this lil cute toy that she puts right in front of her when she studies. think she placed it there for convenience. so she can torture it whenever shes stressed. poor toy. its really cute. and soft! nice to touch :)

anyway i did the e.lit holiday hmwk today!! heh. went to the mall with kmiang :) couldnt find her three quarts la. a non branded and ugly one costs 40bucks. madness.

my sister's having tuition now. she+her tutor are like damn lame. i almost burst out laughing by what they tell each other! BUT i caught myself and remembered that i am supposed to be minding my own business. and now he's saying that shes lying to him claiming there's something that decolourises some shit and he's laughing at her being so..whoops. and WHY am i blogging about this?!

tings!! is your comp FINALLY done?? anws am not pissed la! youre always blur as usual. but anyway, dont worry. we can always catch wishing stairs some other day. loveyou!! and have fun at your annual dinner. miss you, babe :) p.s you'd better be coming for chem tomms and not con me okay!

now my sis+tutor's arguing over whether some shit decolourise.

decided to sign gbks here. seems to be down!

haha steph+sq!! bth of you darn cute :D
was grinning like a cheshire cat. teehee! oh but im not pricess la. typo, you two!
haha and steph, i have not blogged about that part when kerms+i were trying to pull the triangle part of your bikini and uh, exposed! ;)
YES you guys are like superr slowpokey okay -glares- haha you guys are like such good consultants!! kerms too. im feeling darn lucky to have free clothes specialists :D and i used to have this aspiring ENORMOUS pimple but after tanning, its suddnly tamed down!! oh and ive solved the mystery to the red patches we developed. its bcos the banana boat tanning lotion has 0 SPF which means 0 protection from the sun which means..HIGH CHANCE OF SKIN CANCER!! gawd. nvm at least we have each other in the hospital ward la. anw the 0 SPF one was the only tanning lotion there so had to buy that one and didnt see carefully!! -growls- oh well. at least we had the exfoliating session :) er steph THE champion why were you screaming and yelping while swimming to our wooden island?? and you and tings' white sunblock was shocking! did you watch GOTCHA just now? the white ghost that the hosts planned to con sharon au? yes you guys look a lil like that ghost..-runs away before you whack me- haha and does trying on two pairs of jeans make me a ZIPPY?!! momsie! and tht reminds me of the ever horny steph who took this porno pic of me. hrmpfs. AND I LOVE YOU BOTH TOO!! :D -grins till my mouth aches- and steph, you'll find my decayed tooth outsyd of your window right now :)

kermin!! you remember the candid shot that steph took of you?? its damnit cute. my god. you look like some cartoon character! my sister thinks so too!! so cute. im nvr ever gonna delete that! heehee

bernbern//you horny thing la you! dont you try deny it! kiat showed me this book that you lent her..and its one of those bian tai RAted ones again. -shakes head- tsktsk. dont try and push the title to me la. youre still the horny queen *falala!! heh. haha i aint big chiobu la. sheesh! tings yes but not me. sad but true. heh. am gonna studystudystudy too!! revise sciences and maths. been really slacky this year!! :( we shall work hard togth. loveeyou!

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okay am done.
i cannot believe that this dumbass mailed me and went : youre so cute! are you sec1?? youre sec1 right?
oh. my. god.

NO I AM NOT.

i absolutely hate people who does things like that. for the last time, im not a kiddo. okay.
im a grown up BIG girl on her way to blowing 15 candles in 29 days.
so think before you speak -rolls eyes-

wyn+da! your friend leh!!

anyhows.
went ree's house today :)) brought ai qing bai pi shu vcd for her and she wasnt pleased!! -grumbles- supposed to bring other vcds tomms. had tomyam from that stall that we both liked since..a year ago. and her sisters are damn funny. but its true. just remember me when youre all rich and famous okay? and dont be silly, im str8. what are you talking about?? spent hours watching it and also getting abused meanwhile. she cannot stop burping in my face, scratching my knee and lying all over me, screaming when i move to get back to my original position so that she can rest her hand on me!! and whacking me. oh and hurling abuse at me la! happily calling me stupid like its my middle name. hmrpfs. but thanks anyway for accompanying me all the way to toa payoh to drop two books at the bookdrop and also bring me all the way right infrnta my bus stop because im such a green horn in that area la. inexperienced. and bet youre happy now that he's visiting you and finally watching your show with you tomms. i can see your face shining exuberantly already. you luckylucky girl you :)

oh before that went to school. missed chem lessons cos someone told me it was 830. so went for stjohnnie instead. drew the letters and we're SNSJ haemoglobinated! haha thought the phrase was cool! so drew the letters and left la. heh. but am happy though. elated :D cos of an..encounter :))))

am so happy today [esp after talking to tings on the phone and recounting the..encounter] i smiled at this other stnicks girl living near my house and even created some small talk :)

oh they've finally ended the decolourising debate. shall go watch bachelor now.
oh my god. he's singing a song ._.

just came back!! :D

sucha happyhappyhappyhappy day today -grins at anyone who comes my way-
darn tired and missed holland v and punk'd BUT im still happy :D

tings driver came and got us to town so obviously we towned and found the most fab jeans though we actually saw them before but for some weird reason we got superbly excited about it this time!! but there was no time [and no money] so we headed up to crystal jade and had our lunch+breakfast :) ll always love that stuff.
then we started planning our getaway ._. think too much la. heh.

then went sentosa and met up with steph * queenie!! sq * momsie!! kerms *plime :) and headed to some beach. think its palawan la but its been such a long time since we went sentosa..[yes kuku us] lyk 5mths ago or smth we were overjoyed with the sight of the beach we just charged ahead!! changed then crossed over that bridge to that southernmost continent or some crap place. teehee! felt like we were stranded on some island then we swam to that wooden block of thingy and started tanning! but before that we were contemplating for a loong time whether we should swim and stared at the sea for some time. shuqi was the hao lian one [hee!] and kermin was the so-so la. and me! the slowpok! steph+tings worst lo. screaming and yelling their lungs out and had to be escorted. so anyway the banana boat golden tanning oil worked quite well cos now there is SUCH an obvious tan line along my boobs and erm well, the bottom. however, it was not effective without all of us going through this trial of rashes or whatever it is. developed red patches!! kermin+i wenta buy drinks and stuff and when we were back, found this 3 silly people doing something to each others' back! they look damn corny and found out steph the genius came up with this exfoliating thing!! at first we were like rolling our eyes and going 'are you sure?!' but after some proof, we all started exfoilating each other in circles and well, shifting around whenever someone whines that no one's exfoiliating for her. shall not tell anyone steph's cool discovery!! :)) in the end we all had smooth and tanned legs+backs! :)) oh and when we were tanning this group of ANNOYING guys were obviously turned on by steph or something. kept following us lo. SHEESH. all 5 of us lying next to each other on the wooden thingy and they were like JUMPING AROUND US or playing some kinda DUMB game. GAWD. and they cant even SWIM. -faints- we swam to and fro from the shore to the wooden thingy like 3/4 times and its so NEAR they cant even make it. like get lost, losers. anyway, we had shuqi's FAB chocolate cake!! its DAMN good. really. my momsie rawwks :D and stephs muffins er not bad either. though i didnt eat it. heh. bought all the chips but nobody ate! didnt eat much actually. anyhow, we were drawing stuff on the sand with this stick when suddenly someone came up with this idea of burying someone and i told them about that scene in crazy/beautiful. so we decided to bury steph's entire body and heehee!! that poor girl! kenna tortured by us!! made ENORMOUS boobs till it cracked and all. was really fun!! took pics of us at work and steph's constipated face and tadahh!! our masterpiece! actually we took alorta pics la. with my phone. it got so sandy in the end! and kermin wenta hide it in the rocks when we were playing in the water. was worried that some crab or animal would come take it away ._. and tings thinks there are SHARKS in the water!! sheesh. anyway was very fun in sentosa and actually tings+i were leaving for town first but in the end we all left togther and her driver fetched all of us to town :)) took pics and pics and pics and yea. you get the picture. [oh! you get the picture and we took pics! pun! :D] but we looked helluva retarded ._. with that distorted phone of mine.

so tings went with her mum after that and she got to buy her jeans that we discovered and she left. [i bought my jeans in the end too!] meanwhile, after eating, we wenta miss selfridge, mango, URS, charles+keith, phuture london, future state, m)phosis, topshop, surfbabe, fcuk and some other shops that i cant remember. gawd. legs were like breaking. we were SO energetic at first trying literally EVERYTHING that we thought was nice and even lame stuff just for the fun out of it. and turned out the lame stuff was quite nice!! though i'd look like a retard walking around with a sleeveless purplish pink tee with rows+rows+rows of circular stuff hanging over it!! saw this mango top that i REALLY liked but even small was big :(( it wasnt big but that special metal thing that holds it up is standard and its so frigging low the whole thing reveals like 3/4 of my boobs ._. but if held up, its nice!! liked it ALOT but oh well. saw some stuff that am gonna buy on friday!! we're gonna celebrate kermin's bday and buy what we saw today :D tried on some nice sophiscated dresses at phuture london [u know the kind you wear to attend weddings or for some grand party but they're too glam to walk around in in the streets.] and they're nice too!! but too impractical. might buy one just for the fun out of it :) think the people in URS musta been really irritated with us. tried everything from boots to wedges [how do you spell it??!] to this ballerina shoes!! was dancing around till..well, was dancing around till i spotted another nice slip-on to try on. teehee.

literally shopped till we dropped.

i need someone to massage my legs.
like badly.
my knees feel so srunched up!!

and steph+sq+kermin? thanks for my EARLY bday present. loved it :)
love you guys!!

in fact, i love SW*K!! :D

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huh. im really bored.

friendster's freaking slow. and some stupid ass hacked into my accnt!!
i kp signing in bt they kp telling me i cnt enter.
thn finally its okay nw..

feel very bhb approving ppl's testimonial! sheesh.

my eye was bleeding last nyt. think i over rubbed it or smth. n i continued rubbing it even after it was bleeding! sheesh. gross. shall spare anyone reading this [which is no one] the explicit details. but it wasnt spewing out blood like doreen thinks it was la. it was more like a mixture of blood+tears [?!?] freaked me out. anyhow, its okay now. just a lil red. should i wear contacts?

read king of the castle. its such a disturbing book! both hooper+kingshaw's parents are sexually deprived. like yuck! get a life. and hooper obviously has mental problems. kingshaw's like dumb? cant speak up for himself.
happen to like fielding only. he seems like the only sane person in there.

am growing a pimple plantation across my forehead!! GRR. i need to do something about this..eyesore.
tell me why isnt blackmores working all of a sudden?!!?

yayy sentosa tomms :))

listening to bsb's i'll never break your heart! -laughs. such an old song but it suddenly seems nice again :)

the o's ytd was okay, i think. but got one word and three answers to close passage wrong already :(

towned after that. it was like..played hide and seek la ._. -looks tiredly at wyn-
plopped on my bed and zZZz immediately after i reached home [after bathing la. im not gross]

watched matrix though! :) why is trinity so..aged and old?! not that she's been attractive in the past or anything but still. she wasnt like that! neo suddenly looks better than he did. hmm. and this one's quite touching! suddenly its drama. the ending's quite odd. it ends with sunlight streaming in. how weird is that?! big bro and i both decided that its highly possible that there's gonna be matrix4! but maybe years later.
cine is flooded with posers [yuck.] and stinky smokers every night.
charlie busted is on cosmogirl cover page as the most wanted 101! :) yayy.
and blue's on lime :))
spotted them in times..while..playing hide and seek yesterday.

have decided that im gonna work hard and fail only like add math [since my add math is like hopeless ever since i took it up] from next year. am mugging during hols. whenever and wherever. -grim look.

//so there.

picnic this coming tues! :D
exciting. teehee. been a long time since i picnicked [?! or is it picnic-ed?? whatever la]!

stephsteph queenie you guys aint wearing tees to sentosa right?! you'll get bad tan lines! so ya all shall wear bikinis and shun bian tan while youre at it! :D

^{x your face
holds me over
your face
its wipes away the rain
with a hundred summer skies
and everytime i talk to you
its like im alright
and everytime i talk to you
i get a lil closer to light.}

ytd ws my daddy's bday and we didnt do anything for him at all. my mum ws lyk do you all knw its your dad's bday? we knew but didnt do anything. just didnt feel lyk la. anw sis is lyk busy preparing for her o's and im busy..doing my thing? so i just sent him a msg : happy bday, daddy! :D we love you!
thts okay, right?

im so frigging bored at home. everyone's either home busy rahh-ing at the dumb shou ce_s or out somewhr and nt bothering to say hi anymore or just rotting away at home lyk me :(

studied lyk 3hrs of chinese and i feel lyk my eyeballs are falling off soon. really feel the need to barf at the book.
maybe burying them after all these end wouldnt be a bad idea.
and to think tht tings went into hibernation w hers.
i wlda broken all walls regardless of the strong forces.
it'd be hard to even breathe with those books at the corner of my eye :(

and i needa tan. am seriously fading away into the surroundings.

oh mann. wai+my conver is getting from lame to bad!! wht is wrong w us? what is wrong w me?! coming up with all these crap. but they seem to amuse me just fine :) poor wai.

just finished typing stuff for my dear chaipo

and i was just surfing ard when i realised ! we have a sec2unity website! and complete w gbk and everything! was lyk -eyes bulge out- when i found it. totally amazed.

anw, shall go off nw. and study chinese. and eat. and bathe. and rot. grr :|

^{x cos i was feeling as small as a drop in the ocean
and now i realise that nothing has been as beautiful as when
i saw heaven in your eyes x}

i was gonna type .... when i suddenly remembered that my blog is supposed to be presentable so argh. sod it. stupid friendster is so freakin slow! gawd. ive bn waiting to read a msg since hlaf an hour ago! myspace is really much faster. but nobdy's there ._.

realised i go onlyn at the weirdest hours of the day.

^{x and i said,
goodbye to you.
goodbye to everything
i thought that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to.}

but anyway, the hols are here and i for the first tym evr, i wished school wouldnt end :(

spent the whole of ytd reading ths thick book called 'to be someone' and its qt nice la. dnt knw why i wasted my day away reading tht draggy book bt some parts are qt nice.

my sister is looking so grave preparing herself for the o's tomms. feeling freaky for her!! dnt wna do tht nxt year :( wished i were sec2 all my life. thts the year whn everything was interesting, when everyone was almost happier, if nt, happier than now, everyone was nicer, everyone was prettier, everyone was smarter, everyone was..okay. it was just a whole lot better than what it is at the present. but oh well. talking crap.

and i cant believe some parent's gonna sue someone for using vulgarities in her blog. i mean its hers and isnt it some kinda human right that everyone has the right to express themselves in whatevr way they wish to? its nt lyk they're using vulgarity in tht parent's blog or anything. if tht parent doesnt lyk what she sees, thts her problem, right? this world is seriously restrictive and screwed.

was out with ree+nana on friday :) i really lyk the erm connection btween us, as doreen would put it. haha. everytime we go out together, its always different from how it feels when im with other people. the feeling doesnt fade or change even though we go out like during the hols only? but we shall go out togth more often, shant we? :)

came up with a plan to go to ree's house w/o her knwing and give her a surprise or smth bt she claims tht she 'already has a feeling tht we'd be coming'. and tht nana! she claims tht she knws the way to ree's hse lyk the back of her hands [and thn needless to say, she goes into ths long and dowry debate with herself abt why ppl hafta say its the back of their hands and not the front..or why not the foot and so on..] and she evn reprimanded me for not knwing the way to ree's house myself! [i only went once okay! ._.] what happened in the end? we got freaking lost and i ended up getting pricked by ths stupid large cactus and cos it's so unique and..exotic and i had ths black liquid on my hand, i was complaining to her tht i got poisoned, all thanks to her and she all she says is 'dont be dumb, wendy.' hmrpf. well thanks for your concern. but yea, im up and alive still. and then, after we found her block, [finally] we didnt knw wht storey she was living in! lyk sheesh. her flat has 21 storeys, for god's sake. climbed up and dwn and up and up then down again and finally got the right house. then emerges ths sleepy ree with a pissed look on her face and clad in this pooh night dress that i have too! heh. anw, she didnt have the key [!!?] so we stood there lyk idiots and luckily her maid came back with her dog [and nana kpt asking ree if this ws the same dog as the prev one cos this one's bcome so ugly [!! which is nt true] and ree kps saying yes its the same one and nana goes WHAT HAPPENED?! ._. anw, after inspecting her room, nana finally took up the interest of going to orchard library. but before that, we just had to debate about whether ree should wear this tube or tht ralph lauren tee or that spaghetti or tht halter ._. and of course, they had to laugh at me for commenting tht 'ree's jeans is so long!' hmrpf. tht doesnt neccessary mean im short okay. so we finally left her hse [complete with viewing her dahling's pic and evrything -winks-] and went to orchard library to find that by the time we were done eating tht cafe galiliee's horrible food, it ws already close to 7 and we had to leave cos there's gonna be some performance :( so we went lips [and they ordered food again] and studied a bit [watched rachel's new mtv. shes really pretty and she does not look unique or anything, sabrina wee yue wen. shes just pretty. so there [i won!] okay ths is childish bt anw, we had to leave lips cos ppl are starting to stream in for dinner and we're taking up the place so we decided to go back to ree's hse [left our stuff at ree's hse] and we talked and talked and talked till 10+ and i was whining tht we better leave cos im well, afraid of going home alone at night in case any..er things tht i cannot see appear [i knw i cnt see evn if they do but thts nt the point] and cause me to have scary encounters. finally! we left after much persuasion and i lugged my books and bag along [resembling very much lyk a nerd].

falala.
realised i typed alot! and mostly crap but bah.
okay, shall go check my friendster.
later.